Title: To Be With Him Again
Rating: T for themes
Warnings: Character death, suicide
Summary: AU, post ‘No Rest for the Wicked’ but doesn’t follow season four. Three months have past since Dean’s payment was collected and while Sam hasn’t found a way to bring him back, he’s found a way to see him again.
A/N: Attack of the freakin plot bunny. Though the tone may imply some form of Wincest, it’s not intended that way, so don’t read too far into it. Or you can, either way. Don't own *sob*
The lights were off, the door unlocked and he had neglected to lay the salt lines. Didn’t matter anyway. His brother was gone and he hadn’t been able to save him. Hadn’t been able to do anything. Just stare and scream as his brother was torn to shreds in front of him.
Twelve months he’d had to find a way, and all he had to show for it was another Winchester grave. He’d failed the one person he had always been able to rely on. Twelve months he’d had, plus three more after…after. Fifteen months in all and he’d come up with fucking nothing! No way to break the contract, no way to pull his brother from eternal torment. He’d let down, failed to protect and save the only person he couldn’t live without. He was truly alone and had no way of bringing his brother back. Demons wouldn’t deal, witchcraft and necromancy couldn’t recover souls and the books he’d always relied on didn’t tell him a damn thing.
He needed his brother, would do anything to see him again, to stay with him. Which brought his to his current situation. A last ditch, bottom of the barrel plan, but worth everything if it meant seeing Dean again. He hoped it would work, even if nothing else had. He prayed it would work, however ironic that might be.
And so he pulled from his duffle the thing that could save him, save him from a lifetime without Dean. As he caressed the gleaming metal and fingered the trigger, Sam smiled.
Dealing with a demon wasn’t the only way to get into Hell.
A/N: Ooooh, Dean’s gonna be mad at me! In case you’re confused, Sam’s plan was to kill himself. He was going by the belief that suicides go to hell. I don’t personally believe in this, and Sam may not either on a normal day. But, I believe, with Dean gone and no way to bring him back, Sam would believe anything and DO anything to see him again, even if it meant going to hell with him. I apologise if the subject of suicide upset or offended anyone, it was not my intention.
Hope you, ah, enjoyed, the fic.