Supernatural FanFiction

[necro_omen13]

Title: To Be With Him Again

Author: necro_omen13

Fandom: Supernatural

Genre: Angst/Tragedy

Rating: T for themes

Pairings: None

Warnings: Character death, suicide

Summary: AU, post ‘No Rest for the Wicked’ but doesn’t follow season four. Three months have past since Dean’s payment was collected and while Sam hasn’t found a way to bring him back, he’s found a way to see him again.

A/N: Attack of the freakin plot bunny. Though the tone may imply some form of Wincest, it’s not intended that way, so don’t read too far into it. Or you can, either way. Don't own *sob*

 

The lights were off, the door unlocked and he had neglected to lay the salt lines. Didn’t matter anyway. His brother was gone and he hadn’t been able to save him. Hadn’t been able to do anything. Just stare and scream as his brother was torn to shreds in front of him.

Twelve months he’d had to find a way, and all he had to show for it was another Winchester grave. He’d failed the one person he had always been able to rely on. Twelve months he’d had, plus three more after…after. Fifteen months in all and he’d come up with fucking nothing! No way to break the contract, no way to pull his brother from eternal torment. He’d let down, failed to protect and save the only person he couldn’t live without. He was truly alone and had no way of bringing his brother back. Demons wouldn’t deal, witchcraft and necromancy couldn’t recover souls and the books he’d always relied on didn’t tell him a damn thing.

He needed his brother, would do anything to see him again, to stay with him. Which brought his to his current situation. A last ditch, bottom of the barrel plan, but worth everything if it meant seeing Dean again. He hoped it would work, even if nothing else had. He prayed it would work, however ironic that might be.

And so he pulled from his duffle the thing that could save him, save him from a lifetime without Dean. As he caressed the gleaming metal and fingered the trigger, Sam smiled.

Dealing with a demon wasn’t the only way to get into Hell.

A/N: Ooooh, Dean’s gonna be mad at me! In case you’re confused, Sam’s plan was to kill himself. He was going by the belief that suicides go to hell. I don’t personally believe in this, and Sam may not either on a normal day. But, I believe, with Dean gone and no way to bring him back, Sam would believe anything and DO anything to see him again, even if it meant going to hell with him. I apologise if the subject of suicide upset or offended anyone, it was not my intention.

Hope you, ah, enjoyed, the fic.

Necro_omen13

Comments

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

Dude, I kind of had a feeling it was going there from your intro about how Sam had found a way to see Dean again and I loved it! Especially the subtle way you ended it, not showing him going through with it or anything. This is totally something I could imagine Sam doing once he was finished pretending he could get Dean back.

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*glows with praise*
:D
:D
:D
*squeals*
A few people on FF.net put it on alert, despite the fact it's shown as complete, and asked for a 'happier' ending. HA! All they did was give me ideas for a sequel that, if written, is anything but happy...if you're a Dean girl that is (and who isn't?).

Face it Sammy, you're just not awesome enough. Only Cas has the awesomeness required to get someone out of Hell.

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

Yeah, Sam's kind of epic!fail, isn't he? And I can kind of imagine how the sequel might go, and I don't think Dean would be very happy with things. So maybe Cas can be around for comfort sex. ;)

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo Sammy. Put the gun down!!!!!!

*sobs in a corner*

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*hugs crying V*
There, there.

People have asked me for a sequel, wanting a happy ending. They gave me a plot bunny, but it's not a happy story, at least not for a couple of chapters.

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

hmmm a sequel you say? Don't do it unless you want to, cos I think this is awesome as a one shot.

*dries eyes*

*reads again*

*sobs again*

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Yeah I don't want to ruin the one-shot, and I like the way it ends, but now I have a freakin plot bunny saying "WRITE ME!!!".

I was going to have two chapters at least, one from Dean's perspective and one from Sam's, and basically Sam does end up in Hell, it's Heaven for him because he sees Dean again, but it's truly Hell for Dean because of what happens to Sam in Hell.

What do you think? If I do write it, should I post it as a separate story instead of just some more chapters?

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

I dunno poppet, sounds like a good idea, like that their ideas of hell are different. But I think if you do do it, then post them as separate companion pieces because this works so well as a one shot.

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*takes advice to heart*
Ay, ay Capitan!

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

*feels powerful*

Jump up and down on the spot...

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*jumps up and down on spot*

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*can't believe she didn't reply to this comment*

*bangs head on desk*
Bad necro, bad necro, bad necro!

He is a major epic!fail and yeah, as I said to V, Dean wouldn't exactly be pleased with the outcome. And I was thinking about having Cas make an appearance, though I don't think I'm ready to write smut...of any kind.

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

Oh, but the smut beckons, necro. Everyone says they're gonna steer clear from it, but then everyone ends up succumbing. Just ask V. =D

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

*falls off chair laughing*

Ooooh THE POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I probably will eventually. Your comment actually reminded me of something I read the other day.

Taken from the supernaturalwiki:

Drugs of Fandom
From Super-wiki

On April 17, 2006 mona1347 posted that "fandom is every bit as a) enjoyable and b) addictive as hard drugs". She then compared each of her fandoms to a different drug. The description for Supernatural summed up perfectly a fandom that already had many indulging in reading and writing things -- such as incest, mpreg and RPS -- that they had previously shunned.

Supernatural = Roofies.

You let this fandom buy you one drink, just one drink and before you know it, your clothes’ve come off and you’re doing all these vile and depraved things that you always said you’d never do or just plain weren’t into and you can’t bring yourself to have any kind of problem with the situation at all. Then the next day you wake up kinda sore, wondering what the hell you did last night and have only fleeting remembrances of pretty emo boys, glitter and lube.

Yup, that is TOTALLY the SPN Fandom. Damn those hot boys...

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

How else may I serve you my leige? Perhaps kindnap J-cubed + Misha for you?

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

Omigod! That is the funniest thing ever! Must figure out a way to work it into a post...

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Lol, if you do, I found a hell of a lot more funny stuff on that site.

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

Just realized that every single reply I have sent you this mornnig mentions J-cubed and Misha!
One track minded? me? NEVER!

Um...you could kidnap j-cubed and misha...OR you could WRITE J-cubed and Misha...

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Hmmm, I've never written any smut so I doubt I'd be good at it. We should try and get Faith or the author who wrote that J-squared/Misha story to do it.

Hey, do you think that if we suggested this story to Faith her brain would explode?

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

WRITE SMUT! That is an order!

I dunno about faith's brain exploding. Probably. Its like a weird science experiment! Lets ask her...

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

*sticks her head out from behind the bush*

My ears are burning here, ladies. Did I hear tell of a J-squared/Misha request? Because you so totally know I'm going there! PWP and, quite possibly, a J2/Misha AU for Big Bang. Wuddup!

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*ducks head*
I may have already set myself on the smut writing track....it wasn't my fault I swear!
We were forced to go to a Year 12 health day that just happened to be in a church SO...I er...
*whispers*
decidedtoblasphemebywritingnotjustslashbutwincest

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Nononono Faith, we're not just requesting J-squared and Misha, V and I are requesting
J-CUBED and Misha!

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

J-CUBED poppet. GAWD, can't you read!

FOURSOME!

xx

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

Oh goodie. One of the best ones I have ever read was Dean and *coughs* ahem John in a confessional box.

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

Dude, that's what I'd thought this was about, and then when I was typing my reply the one I looked at to make sure I was right was the one where necro was talking about the girl who'd written the J-squared story. And I was so sleepy that my mind went "meh" and made my hands type J-squared.

Mmmmm... orgy... now that's a whole 'nother story entirely!

*tries to figure out how that would work*

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

I gotcha now.

*is still trying to figure out how that would work*

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

*figures it would work amazingly*

*brains leaks out of ears*

*dies*

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*shakes head squealing*
Nooooo! No Daddy-cest! And only Dean and Cas can do the church!kink and priest!kink!

The fic I've started is good ol fashioned Dean/Sam and it doesn't take place in a church, it was just written in one. Probably won't be a full on lemon, I got work my way up to that.

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

How bout JDM comes to visit the guys or something and J-squared wanna introduce him to Misha? Then they can go have some drinks and...er...BOND.

XD

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

SORRY! But ask Faith...its a very good fic.

Looking forward to yours though!

[savingfaith333.livejournal.com]

That's definitely workable. ;)

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

*claps hands*
*high pitched squeal*

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

YOU.
You are an evil corrupting influence. No only have you gotten me to write wincest while IN A CHURCH, you've caused more wincest and angel-slash plot bunnies to be born.

And...
ikindawannareadthatdeanjohnconfessionalboxficnow

Priest!kink has been running through my poor mind non-stop since I got your previous comment. And now, after reading a helluva lot of priest!kink fics, I wanna read that one.
*sigh*
I am so messed up.

...so, you got a link?

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

HAHAHAHA...you crack me up.

And EXCUSE ME...why am I a bad influence? What the hell have I done? *looks innocent*

Let me find the link for you poppet!

Convert you to the dark side of wincest...

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

V, even Faith says that you're the best wincest-writing converter out there. You've made my poor mind more dirty than usual. And that's saying something!

And thanks for lookin for the link.
*hugs*

*mutters*
Friggin dark side.

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

*is totally in love with your icon*

HEY...what the hell does that mean? Even Faith? *grumbles and goes to have a word with Faith*

YEAH...the dark side...embrace it my friend.

Am sending you the link in a message in a sec angel.

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

Hell yeah! J-squared FTW!
If you like that icon, check out this one.

And I read that fic, WHILE AT SCHOOL!
*epic!blush*
I cannot believe I read it.
*bangs head*
Bad necro. How could I do that to my Sam and Dean?
You evil recruiter you. I cannot even honestly say I will never read daddy!cest again. I can try though.

*mutters*
Friggin priest!kink.

[veritas-st.livejournal.com]

*power punch* HAHAHAHA YES!

I told you it was good.

It made me like daddy!cest.

Evil!Recruiter!...THATS ME!

Oh come one...it was hot...admit it!

*hugs you and your awesome icon*

xx

[necro-omen13.livejournal.com]

You should have a badge saying 'Evil!Recruiter'.

And...it might have been hot. But it was still weird caus it was JOHN. Just weird. Sam and Dean are better in wincest.

*hugs V*